OctPoWriMo 29 - Only Relief

Today's prompt asks us to think about an ending that was positive. I've written a rondel about my first boyfriend.

Only Relief

I felt no grief when he walked away,
Only relief that he was gone.
In his life, I was a pawn,
A decoration for display.

I’d told myself it would be okay.
I loved him; I thought he was the one.
I felt no grief when he walked away,
Only relief that he was gone.

It was a sunny summer’s day:
My best friend told me what he’d done;
I wasn’t enough; he wanted fun.
She’d spurned him, but he’d tried to stray;
I felt no grief when he walked away.

To the Girlfriend of My Ex

When I broke up with my first boyfriend, I wrote a lot of poetry about the situation, one of which I posted on a previous day: Role of a Lifetime. The following is another such piece.

To the Girlfriend of My Ex

Does he tell you I'm a snob?
Does he say I led him on?
Have I become a shadow in the night?

Does he cry upon your shoulder?
Does he make you pity him?
Have you become the crutch on which he leans?

Do you think you are in love?
Do you want to marry him?
Do you think your feelings could be right?

Are you starting to feel trapped?
Do you think he's a mistake?
And when he speaks, you wonder what he means...

Role of a Lifetime

I wrote this just after breaking up with my first boyfriend, who dreamed of someday being a film director.

Role of a Lifetime

You picked me, 'cause you liked my looks,

To be the leading lady in the movie of your life.

You were the director, and you wanted me to be your perfect star.

There was no audition that I knew of, so I thought you wanted me for me;

But I'm not an actress

And I couldn't play the part.